Garden primroses
Garden primroses

The following snippets from the last nine month’s diary describe the doubts I had about starting the blog.

Tuesday 19th March 2013

Newton and Nebuchadnezzar

Wrote verses on paintings by William Blake. They are Newton (1795) and Nebuchadnezzar (1795), two powerful images, one symbolising the dangers of rationalism, the other symbolising the bestial side of man. It is amazing that Blake was such a great painter and at the same time a great poet. It doesn’t often happen. And he was a mystic and visionary who seemed to live all the time in a spiritual reality.

Friday 22nd March 2013

Doubts about starting a blog

I have been considering starting a blog. Its purpose would be to tell how the Lord has dealt with Margaret and me and the amazing things that have happened to us in the last few years. I’m aware of the pitfalls and the criticism which are bound to come – whether explicitly expressed or implicit – when someone puts their head above the parapet for their faith. The unbelievers will scoff and say, ‘He’s making it all up’, or, if not, ‘So what, it’s all anecdotal.’ Here, I’m thinking of people who don’t believe that life has a trans-physical vertical dimension. I used to be like that, sceptical and agnostic, as I’ve already described. That is one reason why I feel I have to tell our story. What has happened has proved to me that there is trans-physical dimension to life.
Garden primroses (wild)
Garden primroses (wild)

Signs and wonders in a Christian setting

What happened to us happened in the setting of a Christian community and the ‘signs and wonders’ that happened to us happened in the context of what we were doing and thinking in that setting. Hence what happened was proof for me – Margaret didn’t need evidence of this sort – of not just any religion, but of the Christian religion, specifically, the risen Lord.

The most amazing recent events were the picture of Jesus falling off the table of its own “volition”. (Please see the entries for 28th May, 5th July and 13th October 2012.) As I’ve said before, these events were special in that they weren’t mere poltergeist activity. It could have been any object in the house but it was the Turin shroud image of the Lord Jesus. Secondly, they happened as if they were giving us a message. It wasn’t necessarily at the time but afterwards that the message became clear.

Now, I go on about how I am stupified by the nature of these events! How could these things be? And I continue to be astonished.

A trans-physical side to life

Before I became a Christian, I could never have believed that such things could happen to me. I believed in naturalism, that cause always followed effect; that everything could be explained in naturalistic terms. Not now. I now know in our experience that the two of us have seen these things happening. There is a trans-physical side to life.

It is for those who have doubts that I feel it is important to put on record what has happened to us. The Lord , I know in my heart, wants me to do this. That is why I’m doing it. What has happened has been a huge help to us. I hope it will help others; those who already believe and those who have a desire to do so.

Satanic signs or signs of the Kingdom

There will be the naysayers among the religious. They will say that what happened to us are Satanic signs. My reply is that if the miracles that happened, and for me that is what they are, help the advance of the Kingdom of God, then they are not from Satan but from God himself. There are Satanic powers which oppose the coming of the Kingdom of God. Jesus Christ is Lord on earth, in this world and the next, and will overcome evil forces in the end.

I’m not a sectarian, a church person, and I couldn’t care less what church people think and say. I have one Lord and master, Jesus Christ, and if I serve him what does it matter what people say.

Hebrides approaching Uig
Hebrides coming into Uig, Isle of Skye, April 2013

Tuesday 26th March 2013

More doubts about the blog

I am still struggling with the idea of the blog, should I or shouldn’t I? Then today I was given the words in Zechariah 8:16-17 ‘These are the things you are to do: Speak the truth to each other and render true and sound judgment in your courts; do not plot evil against your neighbour, and do not love to swear falsely. I hate all this declares the Lord.’ Margaret is convinced that the Lord wants me to go ahead with it.

The message in Zechariah

One would think this prophetic chapter in Zechariah was talking about our age, the age of communication. It talks of the presence of God among the nations. “This is what the Lord Almighty says: ‘Many people and the inhabitants of many cities will yet come, and the inhabitants of one city will go to another and say, Let us go at once to entreat the Lord and seek the Lord Almighty. I myself am going. And many peoples and powerful nations will come to Jerusalem to seek the Lord Almighty and to entreat him.’

This is what the Lord Almighty says: “In those days ten men from all languages and nations will take firm hold of one Jew by the hem of his robe and say, ‘Let us go with you, because we have heard that God is with you.’” These are remarkable words, considering they were written circa 500 years before Christ.

Despite my misgivings, they encourage me to go ahead with the blog.